bah! wah!

Oh, woe, woe. Why are there these days when everythings so dull and dirty and cloudy. I don't mean outside (though, oddly, the weather does match my mood), I mean in my head. Some days nothing feels right. My insides are dull and rusty and I just sit here and worry about life. I hate wondering if I'll ever really be just plain happy again. I want to feel free and bouncy and not worried about anything, not wanting anything, not feeling like I'm doing nothing I want.

Thing is, three days ago, I was happy. I wasn't worried about anything. Hormones, blah! Bah! Wah!

It's just not me to sit and stew and think everything's shit. I need to dance or bang on some drums.

Instead, I'll go to class. Sigh.