Let's see. It sucks to realize how dissatisfied I am with my life here. I'm just not really enjoying it. I'm thinking now that it may be possible to keep those depression demons away that were making me feel so gawdawful the past 2 months. But I'm afraid I'll remain feeling all lackluster-like.
I've got a real pain-in-the-ass-cold. My nodes (as in lymph nodes, not 'nose' written in a stuffed up voice) are all swollen so I'm totally achy and my head (and nose) is a stuffed up pain in the rear (not really - ew) and I've got that upset stomach that I think comes from swallowing too much phlegm. I just feel all icky.
I still need to buy a few presents before we fly away. I have a good number of gifts for Jesse, but none of them are things he's ever asked for, so I'm worried that he'll be disappointed. I THINK it's stuff he'll like, but I wonder if he's expecting something fabulous.
Also, the watch I got him for his birthday is losing time. Could it already be low on batteries? I don't know about that. It's a NICE watch and it better not be all breakey.
We had a long talk/discussion/frustration last night and I feel like it got us nowhere. Except maybe a few miles into "not-understanding-each-other land". I don't know how to make us both satisfied with our lives. Especially since I don't know how to fix myself just now.
It just hurts to feel so out of sorts in the head. Jesse makes me feel better so much of the time, but I wonder if he's running out of sympathy. Then I'd be so stuck.
Yuck - life is not easy.