more stuff that sucks

So I guess it's time to add an entry. I don't really feel good. Can't go into what's wrong, but I'm a mental case, I tell you. I really kind of feel like life just sucks. It's so hard. Where'd the fun go? The innocent love? The easy freedom I felt from finding someone I love so much and wanting to be with them forever? It was perfect. Shouldn't that be easy? You'd think after a year together there would be no more surprised. No new things to try to fit into the life you always thought you'd have. I always knew I'd be happy, but what if I was wrong?

Writing all this isn't making me feel any better. Damn it, life is no stroll in the park.

Last night we had Karate class and I'd eaten very little all day and felt a bit faint. But it was good and I'm sore. This time it's my arms, not my legs.

It's very cold and kind-of not quite snowing. An occassional flake falls but you're not sure it's not just a bug.

Anyway. I'm lonely and a bit confused and sad. If you're reading me, please leave me a note or, better yet, knock me off an email. I feel like I need to know there are still people around who, you know, think about me and care and stuff.